Survivor, sometimes

such a beautiful day

it was

when you died

august sun and summerbreeze

all around me

i celebrated life

while you gave it up

and i felt ashamed then

but how could i've known 

and do i have the right

you've chosen darkness

i'm stuck in the light

deep, deep inside

i should have known

now i'm just a survivor, sometimes 

once i've been my own girl 

until you came and took her away

thought this meant love

until i felt the betrayal

i was like a dog under your leash

still ashamed of my blindness

seems shame is all you left

for me

and do i have the right

sent you down into hell

where you might burn alive 

deep, deep inside 

i should have know

now i'm just a survivor, sometimes 

all bad things that happen to me

should have make me harder

but that's not true

cos it always hurts like the first time

when you cry and shout

it makes you recognize

you're a survivor, sometimes  




Menschen, die sich umbringen, haben nicht die geringste Ahnung, welche Auswirkungen, dass auf ihre Mitmenschen haben kann oder in welch tiefes Unglück sie ihre Angehörigen stürzen. Es ist schon schlimm genug, wenn nahe Menschen unfreiwillig aus dem Leben scheiden. Wenn es aber eine freiwillige Entscheidung ist, bestürzt das die Zurückgebliebenen noch mehr.
Sie sind Überlebende einer Katastrophe, die sie nicht abwenden konnten. 
People who commit suicide have no idea, what consequences their act will have upon the lifes of their families and friends. How much pain and suffer it brings. The relatives are survivors of a catastrophe they could not avoid.