Meanwhile

...be prepared for autumn.

Catch me if I fall
 I'm losing hold
 I can't just carry on this way
And every time I turn away
 Lose another blind game
 The idea of perfection holds me
Suddenly I see you change
 Everything at once
 The same
 But the mountain never moves
Rape me like a child
Christened in blood
Painted like an unknown saint
There's nothing left but hope
Your voice is dead
And old
And always empty
Trust in me through closing years
Perfect moments wait If only we could stay
Please Say the right words
 Or cry like the stone white clown
 And stand forever
 Lost forever in a happy crowd
 No one lifts their hands
No one lifts their eyes
Justified with empty words
The party just gets better and better
 I went away alone With nothing left
 But faith.

There are parts of me he'll never know, my wild horses and my river beds, and in my throat voices he'll never hear. He pulls at me like a cherry tree, and I can still move but I don't speak about it. Pretend I'm crazy, pretend I'm dead. He's to scared to hit me now - he'll bring flowers istead I need an island, somewhere to sink a stone I need an island, somewhere to bury you, Somewhere to go And the dogwoods shimmer in October sun, "oh sweet thing", he sings to me, "You're the only one." I need an island, somewhere to sink a stone I need an island somewhere to bury you, Somewhere I need an island, somewhere to sink a stone I need an island, somewhere to bury you, Somewhere to go. And I don't know why I can't tell my sister, He spat in my face again, and I don't want to die here. You know that dream when your feet won't move, you want to come but your body won't let you. He steals it from me.He steals it from me. It shines like sweat, like jewels, like something that has died to soon. He fucks with the beauty. A kiss, a kick, a kiss, a kick, a kiss kiss kick. He steals it from me. It's out of my hands again. I need an island, somewhere to sink a stone I need an island, somewhere to bury you, Somewhere to go, to go.....

Pearl Jam- Black from Sonny on Vimeo.

Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay Were laid spread out before me as her body once did. All five horizons revolved around her soul as the earth to the sun Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn Ooh, and all I taught her was everything Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds of what was everything. Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything... I take a walk outside, I'm surrounded by some kids at play I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear? Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head, I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning, how quick the sun can drop away And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass of what was everything All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything... All the love gone bad turned my world to black Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll be... yeah... Uh huh... uh huh... ooh... I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star in somebody else's sky, But why, why, why can't it be, can't it be mine?